goodbye 2 0 1 4, hello 2 0 1 5

I think my worst characteristic last year was letting things get to me.  Even as I allowed them to get to me, in that moment I would think "I really should react differently" and then I would get even more upset at the situation and myself, and it became impossible to get happy again.  So many happy things happened last year, but towards the end it was like a finale of awful:

1. The miscarriage.

2. We had fraud on our credit cards (our actual money!) and it took 2 weeks to get it back.

3. My car was impounded, which ended up being a $700 day.

4. At work, I started to report to the most difficult person I have ever worked with.

5. I am not pregnant yet, and some people are on their 2nd and 3rd babies already.

Among other things, my New Years Resolution is to find the happy.  So what if these things happened?  These are my trials and other people have theirs.  What bothered me the most wasn't the trial itself, what bothered me is the way I reacted to it.  I couldn't find the happy, and no matter how much people would try (Wade specifically), it seemed as though I would forever be in a funk.  I was texting my mom a few weeks ago about things that were worrying me and she texted back:

"The only thing you should worry about is this very second"

I'm not trying to be dramatic, but that statement changed my life!  It's so true!  If we worry about other things that don't even matter at that moment we could possibly ruin relationships or fail to create new, happy memories.  So for 2015 I am only worrying about this very second.  I have realized lately that I am a very happy person actually!  I love feeling happy.  If you don't know exactly what makes you happy, or what will get you out of a funk, that's ok.  All you need to do is to focus on this very second.  This very second you can do anything.  This year you can do anything.  I know I will!

Wade bought us passes.  Normally I would freak out and say that we couldn't afford them, but I really think this is what we need this year--what I need this year to help me find the happy.  You can't put a price on happiness.

This year I will:

Watch more documentaries 

Go to museums

Keep an organized recipe book

Make more friends

Find the happy